She realized it wasn’t about how hot he was. It was about how beautiful his intentions were.

Jan 25, 2009

After 3 weeks of excruciating training, I am finally on the floor and at my desk. I have yet to make my first phone call, which will be done on Monday, but I’m not that nervous about it. While most people are worried that they are going to screw up, that has never been one of my concerns. No one is perfect and I’m quite certain that the company doesn’t expect us to be. They want us to screw up, we’re supposed to screw up, because ultimately it’s the only way we’ll be able to learn. Really my only concern is not being able to help people realize just how important school is. I don’t care so much about not meeting the expectations set for me, more about the fact that I’m going to fail at being a mentor, which means that I’ve not only failed my students or potential students but also myself. I’m trying not to think too negatively about it, but I can’t say that it isn’t hard.

My birthday is just around the corner and I am near 23 years of age, which terrifies me. I’ll be the first to admit that I’ve had some serious bouts of baby fever which I realize is absolutely insane, but it’s hard when you see the people you’ve gone to high school with having babies, starting families, and while you’ve been married for nearly 2 years, that aspect of your life is still far into the future. I mean I know it’s best to wait and I realize that in the long run, I’ll be happy I did, but there’s that stupid biological clock that keeps ticking away, never failing to remind me that I am jonsing for a little baby to hold and mold into someone great. Bah, stop it clock. I still have time, I’m still young. Now if only my head would listen.

Robby and I have been discussing the possibility of buying a house, depending on how long we decide to stay out here. Ideally, I’d love to move out to Philadelphia, but a transfer would only be possible if I have an acceptable review and an opening for a finance counselor happens to open up within the next year or so. I’m not too worried about my position because they’re typically always hiring for it, it’s just Robby’s position that makes it difficult. Either way it’s probably not something that’s going to happen for awhile, but it’s definitely a nice thought.

In my previous post, I shared with you all a list of resolutions I had for this year. I’m slowly making progress towards one of them which is to start school. I’ve completed all the paperwork and am now awaiting academic clearance from the department which specialists in processing applications. Once I get cleared for that, my finance counselor will take a look at all my financial paperwork and if everything looks good, clear me for registration. At which point my Enrollment Counselor will contact me and let me know when I start school. I am aiming for February 2, but it’s really dependent on when all of my paperwork gets cleared. It’s both scary and exciting, but I’m happy to be making this step.

My next goal to complete is going to be getting my license. I admit that I’m still putting this off, but it’s one of those things where I don’t feel like sitting for hours at the DMV on one of my days off. What’s sad though is that I’ve gotten very lax with my driving, so I will need to practice on driving “correctly” so I can pass the test. It’s going to be difficult trying to break some of the bad habits I’ve picked up, but I’ll have to learn to do it if I expect to pass my test. I have until April to get my license because that’s when my permit expires, so that’s my goal. I’m hoping that I’ll stick with it and not let my fear get the best of me.

In other news I’m gonna have to send my laptop in because there’s a problem with the charger. About a month or so ago, I had the same problem, where out of the blue the charger just stopped working. I knew it was the charger because the charger block has a light which turns green indicating that it is receiving an electric current. Suddenly out of nowhere the green light stopped showing so I contacted technical support and they sent me another one. Well this morning, while I was using my lappie, I noticed that it was running off battery power when it was plugged in. First thing I did was check to make sure it was still plugged into the outlet and then I picked up the charger and looked at the block and discovered that the green light was no longer on. I’m not exactly sure what the problem is, but I’m going to see if I can send the laptop in, as opposed to asking for another adapter because replacing it doesn’t seem to be the resolution. Hopefully they don’t give me a ton of heat regarding the adapter because I don’t really need the headache!

As a side note I removed the “Twitter” block from the footer because it wasn’t working and replaced it with my last.fm list. I’m a bit sad that I can’t have the Twitter updates, but I was tired of dealing with it so now you get to see what I listen to when I’m fooling around on the internet.

Well, I’m off to read the next book in the series I’m reading called, “City of Ash“. So far, I’m enjoying the storyline and while it’s not the most amazing book, it does what is necessary and that’s allow me to escape reality. If you’re interested in reading the series or at least learning a little more about the series, the first book is called, “City of Bone” and is written by Cassandra Clare. If you do look it up, let me know what you think! Alright, I’m off to read!