It seems we have no control what so ever over our own hearts.

Feb 8, 2009

Life
Is it just me or does it seem like everyone and their mother is pregnant or getting pregnant? Now normally this wouldn’t bother me, but I’ve been dealing with a huge case of baby fever these past few months and it just seems like every time I turn around I hear that someone is pregnant or someone just had a baby and it’s really starting to get on my nerves. I have no problems admitting that I’m beyond jealous because I’d like my own bundle of joy, but I’m a realist and I know that now would not be a good time to even consider bringing a child into the world, however that doesn’t mean that I enjoy having it thrown in my face every time I turn around. Well at least that’s how it seems. I mean yay, congratulations to the future mom and dads to be or the new parents, but I’m bitter and unhappy and tired of hearing about pregnant people or seeing them!

Work is no better. Every which way I turn, there’s a pregnant lady walking around and I can feel the green in me start to come out. The little vines of green coil around my heart and make me want to scream, “No fair, no fair!” Instead, I smile, and ask when they’re due in the meanwhile I’m silently thinking to myself, “Bitch.” You know it didn’t seem too long ago when I didn’t really care and had no desire at all to have a child because I knew I had time, but even at 22, almost 23 my biologically clock is doing wonders to try and speed up the process. Thank goodness I have a husband who does well in making me see the reality of things– even if he has to do it almost every other day because of the constant exposure to moms to be. *pouts* *pouts*

School
School seems to be going well. I dislike the word count limitations on certain assignments because I’m a writer and limitations on the maximum number of words only serves to piss me off. Currently I have an “A” in both my courses, though just barely in one of my courses because I wasn’t aware there was a maximum number of words I could write being as it wasn’t clearly stated. Yes, I’m pissed– but at least now I know and make an effort and I mean an effort to make sure I’m in the word count requirements limitations. It’s beyond frustrating, I can tell you that.

I am really enjoying one of my instructors for my Contemporary Business Communication class, but I don’t particularly like my instructor for my Skills For Learning in an Info Age class. She seems rather bland and dissociative and I’m just not a fan. I cannot wait until I’ve finished her course. I may actually throw a party!

Electronics
I recently just found out that T-Mobile is due to release the newest version of the Blackberry Curve this month. I had planned on purchasing the Blackberry Bold unlocked, but I may just get the Curve as the specifications are slightly better and it’s must smaller and thinner then the Bold. I have yet to decide, but I plan on checking out the new Curve prior to making my decision, as I’ve already tried the Bold and loved it. Chances are I will go with the Curve only because it will probably be cheaper and I wouldn’t have to worry as to whether or not I could get 3G on it via our provider.

I also plan on purchasing the G-1 for Robby as a surprise, though he has insisted that I wait for the rest of the phones T-Mobile is supposedly due to release. The only problem is that his phone is a complete piece of shit and it’s not just that he wants a new phone but really that he needs one. So those will be my two purchases for the month of February, one as a birthday present and the other just because I love him.

Travel
This weekend Robby and I will be driving to San Diego because I desperately need some time out of the state. Plus we have a 3 day weekend due to President’s Day, though my manager was kind enough to give me my birthday off so really we’ll have a 4 day weekend. What sucks is that before we can even think to drive out to San Diego we have to get one of the tires on the Jeep replaced because it appears to have a leak. Unfortunately it’s not covered under the warranty so we are forced to pay out of pocket to replace the tire. Not something we are really looking forward to, but unfortunately it has to be done before we head out to San Diego. Of course we could just stay in for the weekend, but I’m not particularly thrilled about that idea because I really need to get away for a weekend. Hopefully it won’t cost too much to replace the tire but knowing our luck that won’t be the case.

Well, I’m off to bake some cookies, straighten my hair and simultaneously try not to pull out my hair as I try to complete my homework which again has a damn word count limitation. It’s no wonder I haven’t thrown my computer out the fucking window yet!