Can’t run away from, can’t make it undone.

Sep 13, 2009

I haven’t been much like myself the past few days and I’m not sure why. I think that maybe the whole seeing my mom again thing after so many years is finally catching up to me and really giving me some time to process, hence my suddenly lack of interest in anything and everything and my productivity level dropping. I am hoping that taking some time away will help re-energize me because it seems like I desperately need it. I suppose we’ll see if time away really does me any good.

I finished watching Eureka today and I have to say, yet again, another great show canceled before its time. It’s so sad when the potential for shows is cut short by networks because its not bringing in enough viewers. Ironically, it’s much like owning a message board. One pops up ever day and one is closed because the owners refused to realize its potential and work harder to make it something that people would enjoy coming back to. Oh well, I guess that’s life.

It’s too bad though for shows because we’ve lost so many due to people having that mentality. In any event I think my suddenly lack of productivity as comes to stress. I’m stressed because my mom’s little impromptu arrival put us where I didn’t want to be, with nothing in our savings. I am trying to panic about it because I know it will only be a few more weeks until we have something in our savings again, but still I can’t help. Plus, the constant increases in our electricity bill each month isn’t helping the situation. Two people should not be paying 300/month for electricity. Something just isn’t right. I’m going to have Robby look more into this because it just seems off to me. I know that leaving 30 minutes from town has something to do with it, but honestly our bill has double and that’s just ludicrous to me. I don’t know maybe I have the wrong expectations. In any event, I’m going to pick out a movie to watch and crash. Tomorrow is my Friday, but I think I may start picking up some extra hours to help with the cash flow– course that means my temperament isn’t going to decline rapidly, but hey, sometimes you have to do what’s necessary, regardless of whether you like it or not. *shrugs* Again, that’s just life.