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Sep 24, 2009

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I sure hate to break down here.

Sep 23, 2009

I woke up this morning and felt like shit. Hell, I still feel like shit. My not feeling like myself is the understatement of the year. I just don’t feel right, not at all and I hate that feeling. I wish there was an easy fix, but sadly there isn’t, so I’ll just go about continuing to tell myself I’m find when deep down I know that’s not the truth at all. I wish it was, I really do.

I’m hoping the trip to SD next month will help in being myself back to life– because honestly if I’m honest with myself I just feel dead. Like every ounce of life has been sucked out of me and I have yet to discover where those feelings come from. I have some ideas, but they’re not exactly concrete. If there were ever a time that I’d want to run far away and be left alone, now would be it. I don’t want to be around people and that include the man I’ve sworn my life, love, and devotion too. I have no idea what that means.

Not enough sleep makes Angel go crazy!

Sep 22, 2009

Today has been pretty mellow. I ended up rolling Elyos since Vala decided she liked them better and I hate them. Lol. The starter area blows and the wings look awful. Seriously, they look so fake it wasn’t even funny. I also had a slight headache develop about an hour again and I think in large part it’s deal to the lack of sleep I got last night. Thank you, Diesel. She decided to wake me up this morning and after that I couldn’t go back to sleep. I had contemplated taking a nap but that didn’t really pan out for me.

Robby picked up the Aion game today and the box is super pretty. I’m thinking about reinstalling it because I’ve had some game crashes while in a major city so I don’t know if it’s the game itself or because of the city. *shrugs* I suppose uninstalling and reinstalling will let me know. In any event, I’m slowly but steadily leveling away and from what I hear 20 onward is going to be a lot of grinding so I guess I’m preparing myself for that. Oh well, we shall see!

Falling into the unknown

Sep 21, 2009

Well I almost completely blew Project: Blog because I got caught up in leveling in Aion. Thankfully Danika reminded me so I figured I would “pause” and get this blog in. The launch for Aion, well at least the Head Start launch, I felt was done well. Honestly, it could have been much worse and yes there were and still are queues, but honestly that’s to be expected. Would people honestly rather have the ability to log on with ever simultaneously causing the server to overload which prevents EVERYONE from playing? Yeah, I didn’t think so.

I’ve had my fair share of waiting. Sure it wasn’t 3 hours of waiting, but honestly if that was what I was faced with, I’d have walked away, put on a movie, made some dinner, or gotten other stuff done in between. I get that people want to play however the queues will disappear as the servers balance out. It just takes a bit of time which people aren’t willing to understand.

In any event, the game is awesome, the people are awesome and it’s a nice change of place. Definitely looking forward to the raids and instances. It’s sure to be kick ass.

You’re barely waking & I’m tangled up in you.

Sep 20, 2009

I’m writing this now while work is slow because I know once I get started on Aion, I’m not going to want to stop. I was able to finish my homework that was due today, last night so I have nothing keeping me from stopping, other then food and drinks, which I’ve already stocked up on. This is so going to be kickass, I can feel it. *nods*

I hate working Sundays because they’re always slow in the morning/mid-afternoon and then it tends to pick up around 1:30-2:00, EST, once the church goers have come home from lunch. It’s nice in a way because I get downtime in the morning and then the rest of my shift flies, but it also sucks because the mornings tend to drag. Right now I’m trying to get Saturday/Sundays off by doing a permanent shift swap, but we’ll see if that’ll happen. One can hope.

Tomorrow is the season premiere of House and Robby and I are looking forward to it. It’s nice to have our shows back even if it means no True Blood, but I plan on buying the second season so I can marathon it with Robby one night. I’m sure he’ll be thrilled to see my infatuation with Alex/Eric. He thinks I’m so silly with my man-crushes. Alright, I suppose I’ll end this hear and do something product, like twiddle my thumbs. Just kidding.

& now that I’m sitting here thinking it through, I’ve never been anywhere cold as you

Sep 19, 2009

Today has been a pretty shitty day. I’m still angered with Robby and his complete disrespect towards me, regardless of the fact that I have spoken to him about this particular matter and have told him how it makes me feel when he just ignores my requests. I haven’t spoken to him all day because I have no desire to speak to anyone who can’t show me any respect.

Tomorrow is Head Start for Aion so I need to finish all of my homework tonight because I highly doubt I’ll be up for stopping once I really get into the game. I’m really looking forward to it. It’ll be nice to be able to actually level and not have to stop just when I’m getting into it because I’m going to lose my characters. I’m also really happy that I managed to get my number one name for the game and also decided to risk deleting said toon and remaking her to how I wanted her to actually look without losing the name. I was originally going to wait until after Head Start began, but decided to risk it anyway!

I’m not going to lie and say I’m not avoiding homework because I am. I have no motivation to start or or do it and thus I’m looking at the clock wondering how much longer I can put it off before I have to do it. I have no idea when I became just a slacker, – but I suppose I’ll start it now since I have to do some skimming to make sure I’m actually doing the assignment now. WTB someone to do her homework.