Jan 21, 2010
Today out of pure curiosity, I texted Robby to ask him if guys talk about sex the way girls talk about sex. To my complete surprise, he said no, and that it was almost exclusively a girl thing. Anyone else happen to find this strange? When I probed him further to ask why that was, he said he wasn’t sure but believed that perhaps it had to do with the whole homophobic line that guys are so terrified to cross. He said if they discussed sex in the manner that girls do, then it would imply that they would be picturing each other having sex and well, for a guy you see the problem.
Funnily enough though, when I talk sex with my girlfriends, I don’t picture what they’re doing, rather I’m intrigued by what I could possibly try myself. When we talk positions or orgasms, it’s more of a huh, I should try that out, or a hmm, I wonder if I could achieve that type of reaction and not the, visual that Robby seems to say is the case for men. While, I understand where he is coming from, it all seems a bit silly to me, though in some regards, I feel kind of relieved, because honestly it would be strange to feel as if whenever the guys are over, rather then just hanging out and having fun, they’re instead remembering what Robby could have possibly told them about the night before last, etc– well, you get the picture, lol.
I guess in some ways that’s not fair to Robby, because I do gab with my girls about the things we do, but I don’t think they think about those things whenever we have them over to hang out. For girls, I think it’s purely science and more of a reconnaissance chat, as opposed to the OMG visual, that seem to be the problem for men. I mean, how cool would it be if a man could go to his guy friend and say “Hey, tried this out with my girl last night and she LOVED it, maybe you should give it a shot and see how it goes?” Could you imagine the possibilities? Sadly, though I don’t think that’s a hope worth holding on to, because despite the fact that guys say we’re too difficult to understand, it’s really the man’s brain that makes me scratch my head like a chimp and say “huh”?
Jan 18, 2010
Those close to me know me as the woman who will tell you exactly what I think, despite the fact that some may perceive my comments as mean or unkind. Those who are close to me also know that this is how I show I care. What I say, despite the fact that it may hurt is never done intentionally, rather in a way to ensure that you are capable of viewing certain truths (let’s face it most of the time we’re blind to them) that you’ve chosen to ignore or just aren’t capable of seeing. In the same regard, I expect the same from those I consider friends and those I am close to. I would never want anyone to feel that they need to sugar coat or “protect” me from what is true. I need to be able to rely on my friends and family to tell me what the deal is, regardless of how it hurts because it’s the only way I can ensure any decisions I have to make are based on fact and that I grow as a person. The problem with this outlook is that those who aren’t capable of understanding the reasons behind my attitude often label me as a bitch– which to be honest, I don’t actually care about. I’d rather be a bitch than the person who told you something to make you feel better, when really the best thing for you and everyone involved was for you to hear what most refused to tell you. So hey, call me a cold-hearted bitch, it doesn’t effect my sleep any, in fact, baring the manbeast in my bed who snores like no other, I sleep quite fine. 
Yesterday was the last day of my ethics course, which let me just say thank G-d! Seriously. I bullshitted my way through that entire course because the material was all fluff. I had a final due last night that presupposed that I lived in a racialized community (I don’t) and made the paper exceedingly difficult to write. Thankfully, I’m a good bullshitter and managed to pull 100% out of my ass, which meant I aced the class. Now I am currently in week two of the class from hell (Fundamentals of Programming with Algorithms and Logic) which I’m hoping I do much better on this time around. So far I have a 100% in the class, but that could change depending on how well or how terribly this week’s assignments go. Though on a better note, I am finally utilizing Outlook’s calendar and have started to put my assignments on there to ensure that I have no excuse for turning anything in late. Now let’s help I can stick with it and pass the class with at least a C. I’d say B, but I think that’s a bit optimistic, lol. We’ll see though.
I haven’t been feeling very much like myself lately and I’m not sure why. I’ve been pretty down the past few days and Robby has been worried about my mental state. I wish I knew what the deal was because it’s frustrating when he asks what’s wrong and the only answer I have for him is an “I don’t know”. Hopefully, it’s just the hormones throwing me out of walk and I’ll be able to regain my footing within the next few days. I really am over the depressive episodes, even if it gives me a reason to watch Friends as that seems to make me feel slightly better. Blah, we’ll see I suppose.
Alright speaking of Friends, I think I’m going to watch some as I haven’t watched any all day. Our DVD player has been in PMS mode so I’m going to watch it out in the loft. Hopefully, the next time I blog, I won’t be so bloody drab. 
Jan 13, 2010
One of my resolutions this year (as you all know) is to try and pay off our credit card bills. We aren’t swimming in them up to our eyeballs but it’s still something I think that if we did not have would be a huge relief for us, while also ensuring that the money we are spending each month towards those bills goes into our savings. I’ve been pretty resistant to using my personal blog as a means to earn income because I know some people have problems with that, but then I got to thinking, why should I care? It’s my blog after all. My readers, the few that I have, I hope would understand and respect that, especially if I happen to have a clear indication that it is in fact a paid blog post by the categories I use. I suppose in some ways I’ve just been scared that the little viewership I have will be depleted completely if I started to use my site as a means to earn some income which I do not understand why people are so opposed to, especially if the reviews are truthful. I know it’s silly all things considered, but I don’t want to lose my viewership despite the fact that the extra income could go a long way. What are your thoughts on paid blogging? Would you be opposed to coming to my blog if I started to use it occasionally for paid blogging despite the fact that I would have the post categorized in a means that it is easy to identify? Why or why not?
On an unrelated, though partially related note, my new Dell Studio 9000 XPS arrived yesterday, however funnily enough according to Dell support, has not yet been shipped and is still in production. See for yourself:
I know, it’s pretty freaking ridiculous and I bet if I were to call right now, I would be told that the item is either waiting to be shipped out (I was told this twice, prior to my order arriving) or still in production (also told this twice). If I wanted I could probably get away with having them send me another, however I’m paranoid and don’t want to get stuck paying for two XPSes if I do happen to get caught. In any event I’m still in the process of trying to get everything moved over and configured and I’m also waiting on the ram that we purchased from Best Buy and will be ordering a better power supply on Friday so I can stick in the other drive I have, as my current power supply only supports 3 SATA hard drives, which is BEYOND frustrating, but it’s okay, minor delay and easily fixed– well mostly.
/end geek spiel (mostly )
After thinking about it and talking to Jenn about it, I decided that rather then let WishfulDrinking.org expire, I’m going to instead convert it another blog I can use to earn some income off of. I’m pretty excited about it because I think I’m also going to maintain it by posting yummy recipes that touch on liqueurs both in dessert treats and plain old fashioned yummy drinks. Let’s add that to the bizillion other projects I still have yet to sort out and complete and my life just became doubly complicated if even more so. I’m pretty content about my decision though because I think it will be fun to both try out new recipes, while also posting them for those of you who enjoy using alcohol in a fun and yummy way to try as well.
Well, I’m going to start sorting through all the crap I have and get my files moved on to this computer which is going to be a daunting and tiresome task; though I’m sure once I’m done I’ll be thrilled, but still it’s not on my top list of things to be doing right now, but as Jenn from Jenn.nu says, work before play!
Jan 10, 2010
I told myself that this year I wouldn’t bother with resolutions, mostly due to the fact that I fail at keeping them. I made a HUGE list of resolutions last year and out of the 18, I think I was able to accomplish about 7 of them. In other words I failed miserably, lol. This year I think I’m going to shorten my list and create both an online and offline resolutions list. I don’t want to overwhelm myself so I think this time around I’ll be a bit more realistic and hopefully because of that I’ll be able to complete all my resolutions or at least 90% of them by the new year.
We’ll start with the online resolutions:
Blog more often. I’ve successfully blogged every day for a full month so I know I am more than capable of blogging more often then I do. I realize that there are a lot of factors that contribute to my lack of blogging, most often it’s not wanting to blog when I feel as if it’s forced and second often it’s just plain laziness. So this year I resolve to blog as often as possible with the exception of a forced blog entry.
Focus more on paid blogging and don’t do it half assedly. I know it’s a strange resolution to have, but this ties into one of my offline resolutions and thus if I take the time to try and create pieces I can be proud of, this will mean that I can start to branch out more and start working for companies that pay a bit higher for articles. I hope that I can eventually start making $50 per article like Jenn of Jenn.nu.
Stop slacking off on projects. I have several projects under my belt. When I say several, I mean several. One of which is a review site that I wanted to open which ended up falling to the way side. No more. I’m going to be more organized, make lists, and tackle one project at a time.
Increase my viewership. I’d like to get more readers on my blog and realize that in order to do so I need to network a bit more and reach out to others. Sites such as the former Despair.nu were great if you liked superficial comments, but I want readers who actively enjoy visiting my blog and vice versa.
Okay now on to the offline resolutions:
Pay off the credit cards. Now don’t think Robby and I have a shit ton of credit cards and are in debt to our eyeballs because that’s certainly not the case; however we both agreed that before we wanted to even think about trying for children we wanted to ensure that our credit cards are paid off. Obviously no one is every truly ready for children, but I certainly want to make sure that we are as prepared as we can possibly be which means ensuring that credit card bills are not a part of our lives when we introduce kids into them. (By the way, this is the offline resolution tied directly to the paid blogging.)
How about we make our home our home. We’ve been in the house for nearly a year now and it’s still so plain and dreary. I mean sure we painted the family room and living room, but I also want to work on getting pieces up on the walls and just making it feel more homey. Right now the bareness of the walls depresses me so I want to spice the place up by adding my own touches.
Become a Stove Top Diva. Only a few people understand what that means, but essentially I want to really focus on expanding my cooking repertoire because as of right now it’s lacking. Robby and I sat down and realized that we spend waaayyy too much on take out and have made a pack to avoid it as much as possible. Sure we have our moments of weakness, but I think we’re both doing a whole lot better. I also believe that doing this will help prevent us from falling off the wagon and as a result Caity, Jennifer, Rochelle, and I are going to start up a cooking blog in which each day one of us will share a “new” recipe/piece which will hopefully help all of us. By the way, we’re still looking for more people who might be interested in joining us on this escapade, so if you’re interested please shoot me an e-mail.
Focus on building up our savings. Because honestly right now? It’s crap. It’s not a decent size at all which bothers me. We had a sizeable amount, however we seem to have this problem of wanting to buy things that we normally would not if we didn’t have the money for it. I know it’s stupid and it bugs me when Robby decides to buy big ticket items, for instance the ATV he wants to spend our tax return on, but at the same time I can’t tell him no, when I’m guilty of doing the same– albeit the things I want don’t usually cost an arm and a leg. Even still, it’s something we need to work on.
I’m pretty happy with the resolutions I’ve set forth for myself. I’m determined to stick it out and hopefully next year, I will be writing a New Year’s entry of how I accomplished all of my resolutions instead of how I failed miserably at them. Hopefully this year will be full of changes that while difficult will be some of the best things we’ve ever done.
Jan 7, 2010
I had originally anticipated having the new site up on New Year’s Day, however due to unforeseen consequences, that didn’t happen. In any event, welcome to the new website! Not a whole lot has changed from my prior site, but I feel this site in its entirety is completely me. WishfulDrinking.Org was me for a time, however last year was a year I spent regaining all that I had lost in 2008 and rebuilding a marriage that had come close to being destroyed. It wasn’t easy and it was definitely a lot of work, but it was well worth it. I am grateful for the man I have in my life. He is what keeps me going and the person who picks me up when I fall. I love him so much.
Solstice was pretty mellow. It was just Robby and I this year, however it was nice. We haven’t really had a Solstice with gift giving, but this year I went all out to make sure we were able to. I got Robby a few presents that he adored and I bought myself a ton of DVDs. I know it’s strange that I purchased my own presents but I despise surprises and Robby isn’t the greatest with gift giving, lol. He takes things a little bit too seriously. It’s cute though. This year for Solstice I received:
From Robby:
-Wii Console
- Zelda: The Twilight Princess
- EA Sports Active
- Silent Hill: Shattered Memories
- Resident Evil 4
- The New Super Mario Brothers
- Wii Sports Resort
- Cafe Mama
- Burger Island
- Dr. Mario
- Harvest Moon
- Warioland
- Pikmin
- Star Wars: Force Unleashed
- Metroid
- Harry Potter & The Half Blood Prince
-Friends S1-S10
-Smallville S7-S8
-Stargate SG-1 Complete Series Collector’s Edition (S1-S10)
-Gossip Girl S2
-One Tree Hill S6
-Supernatural S4
-He’s Just Not That Into You
-The Night Before Christmas Collector’s
-iHome dock from my iPhone
-Laptop (but I returned it cause I couldn’t stand the resolution)
From my mother-in-law:
-$100 check
From my grandma-in-law
-$100 check
All in all, I feel like I came out on top. I got a lot of DVDs that I needed and they were all for a great price… plus a Wii, which admittedly I haven’t played in awhile but that’s due to the fact that I have been working some crazy, crazy hours. Robby and I talked and both agreed that we want to pay of our credit cards prior to having kids so I’m on a mission to pay them off by next year. It’s going to be hard but I think we can do it if we budget correctly and start utilizing coupons when we shop. I’m also considering picking up a second job at the Walmart down the street. It probably means I won’t be around as often, but if it gets us closer to being debt free credit card wise then it will be worth it. I doubt Robby will look at it that way though. =( Oh well, you have to do what you have to do.
School started up this Monday and I have another week to go before I finish this class, but I am starting up the IT class I ended up dropping next week. I’m hoping if I only have that class to focus on I’ll do better then I did before. I think for the most part I have a better footing then those who are just taking it for the first time, but I’m still going to try and get in touch with my instructor for extra help, etc. I hope I’m able to pull a good grade this time around. We’ll have to see though.
We’ll I’m off to watch some TV and get some sleep. I haven’t been sleeping well lately so I’m trying to catch up on as much as possible. We’ll see how that pans out though– I’m not thinking so well.
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