It’s Always Darkest Before Dawn

Jun 28, 2010

It’s a little astonishing to believe that the year is half over. It seems like yesterday that we were just beginning 2010 and now we’re halfway through it. It’s exciting but also a bit depressing at the same time because there’s the realization that I am actually getting older and that my parents were right when they said kids grow up too fast. It never feels that way when you’re younger, but now looking back it seems as if the years just flew by and here I am today: married and thinking of starting my own family.

So far this year has been great. After every thing that happened in 2008 and the time spent to try and rebuild everything that had crumbled in 2009, it feels great to have a year where things seem to be going to smoothly and the relationship I have with Robby is stronger then ever, though others might feel that it should have deteriorated long ago. I’m lucky and fortunate to have a great man in my life that loves me unconditionally and values the relationship we have. Sometimes I have to stop and catch my breath because I can’t believe how lucky I am and worry that it may all just be an illusion and yet, he’s always there to remind me that’s not the case at all.

It still saddens me to see so many that I love and care for in relationships where they’re hurting and unhappy. Worse still, I feel helpless to do anything for them and I wish I had the power to make it all better– to fast forward through the hard, dark times so that they can be greeted by the dawn, just as I was. Instead, all I can offer is a helping hand and an ear that will listen and a heart that understands. For those of you struggling to fight through the darkness, know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I lived it and I survived and I know you will too.