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Christina the Novice has 28 comments It’s Not That I Don’t Care; It’s That I Do… A Lot.
Jul 23, 2010
For the past several weeks, I have seemed quite distant to a lot of people. Some assumed that this was due largely in part because of Jenn, which isn’t the case at all because I wasn’t talking to her either. What a lot of people fail to understand about the person I am is that I have a big heart and with that I feel emotions of those around me to a higher degree than others—all of this leads to and can only result in one thing: it drains me. A LOT.
My sudden disinterest in communicating with people is not because I’ve gotten close to someone else and therefore block out others, it’s due to the fact that any energy I had was utilized and I am working on re-energizing myself which I am unable to do if I talk with others and try and help them through their problems. I know that’s selfish and I know it hurts a lot of people, but I hope that you can at least understand that given the person I am and the fact that I feel so deeply and strongly for those I care about, it taxes me as well.
I am emotionally tired and just do not have the fuel nor the capacity to continue to hold conversations and act interested when I have nothing left to give. If you know me at all, you know that I would never ever want you to feel as if you’re being ignored but at the same time I do not think it’s fair to attempt to talk with others when I know I just do not have the energy to give what I would normally.
So for anyone who’s been hurt by my lack of desire to talk or lack of interest, I sincerely apologize and I hope that from this point forward you will understand that it’s not you or anyone else for that matter; it’s me, it always has and always will be and I hope you can forgive me for that.
Jul 23, 2010
I am sorry you feel this way! I don’t think it is selfish at all! You need to take care of YOU first. I hope you do find something that will cheer you up and get you back to you! Love ya Angel!