Been There, Done That, Over it!

Jul 27, 2010

Let me start off by saying that this is probably going to piss some people off and if you’re among some of those people then you’re exactly who I’m talking about- so it might be a good idea to think about evaluating the reasons that you’re pissed off, when to me they’re unjust reasons to begin with. Alright, moving on.

You know for the longest time when someone would tell me that I was being distant or I was closing people out, I felt bad about it. I genuinely felt like a jerk for being such a crappy friend and would go out of my way to reach out to those that I had been “ignoring” and worked really had to strike up a conversation and keep that conversation going.

Then today something dawned on me– why should I? Why should I feel obligated to try and reach out to others because their feelings got hurt that I don’t talk to them on a semi-regular to regular basis? What does it matter that I don’t feel the need to IM people every single day to make them feel as if I’m not being distant or closed off? I mean honestly, why?

Newsflash, for those who didn’t know– I hardly talk with my family on semi-regular to regular basis, so please enlighten me as to what makes you so damn special that I should feel obligated or that you should feel that I should feel obligated to reach out to you? What makes you more important than my family who, while I do love dearly, I freely admit can go months without talking to them? Course, I get reprimanded for it after the fact, but they have that RIGHT cause they’re FAMILY.

And on a more personal, semi-related note, I am tired of being told I do not try hard enough to communicate and hold a conversation, because when I do try, I get very limited responses and the conversation just dies. So for those of you who continue to throw the, “you’re a shitty friend for not reaching out to me”, etc card, please familiarize yourself with the following:

Because guess what? I am.