Change is The Essence of Life; Be Willing to Surrender What You Are For What You Could Become

Apr 9, 2011

Last night I made a decision. Probably one that I should have made months ago but there was always an excuse to serve as justification. “We’re too busy.” I’d said or “I’m too tired.” I’d hear [from Robby]– but finally last night I realized that the change I wanted and the change he needed was never going to happen if we half assed our way through everything. We needed this and though it’s going to be hard, especially on me, it’s something that I recognized we needed to do.

Yesterday, I told Robby that I was signing him up for Weight Watchers. I didn’t give him a chance to get in a rebuttal, I told him we were doing it and that was that. Surprisingly, he didn’t argue with me and told me he would try it. It’s going to be a lifestyle change for the both of us because while he and Kristen are trying to lose weight, I’ll be trying to gain it but I’m focused and I am going to do this. No more excuses, no more whining, no more justifications. It’s time the change we’ve been talking about for so long but have never followed through on and we are.

Today we embarked on that journey of change. My goal is to eat at least twice as much as the point value that Kristen is alloted a day, though I’m not deluding myself and realizing that I’m going to have a tough time to begin with. I’m not nearly near my goal for the day but I’m okay with that because it’s a work in progress and I know that. Meanwhile, Robby is now measuring out food as he should be and using the Weight Watchers app on his phone to calculate the point values for the things he’s eating.

I’m going to start drinking Boost Plus to try and increase my daily calorie intake and start tracking the weight that I will hopefully put on. I’m don’t expect this to an easy journey– it’s going to be hard as hell, but I am finally holding myself accountable and am doing the same with Robby. His goal weight is 190lbs and mine is 100lbs. Ideally I’d like to be about 110 but I’ll start small and work up and we’ll see how it goes.

We are the only ones with the capacity to change the people we are and the way we live and we finally are. When’s the last time you made a decision to change?