Friday Tunes: Fighter

May 20, 2011

Fighter is one of those songs that you can’t help but rock out to. It’s also a song that hits close to home due to the fact that three years ago, I found out that my best friend was going around behind my back talking shit about me and my family and still acting as if she was a true friend because we were supporting her monetarily¹ since she had an tad bit of a problem with holding down a job and budgeting. We recognized that she was in a difficult situation so we did what we could without expectations² which is why it hurt so much more when I discovered that she wasn’t the person we all thought she was³.

I admit that discovering the truth nearly destroyed me. I was angry for quite some time but this song helped me heal and allowed me to appreciate what I learned despite all the hurt she put me through.

In a lot of ways she also helped me to recognize the truth of human nature. It hurts and it stings and it makes you question everything about yourself but it also allows you to survive future betrayals and appreciate the lessons they teach.

Fighter is definitely a song that will always get me through when I discover that someone I care about isn’t necessarily who I think they are. Thanks for making me a fighter.

Well I thought I knew you, thinkin’ that you were true
Guess I, I couldn’t trust called your bluff time is up
Cause I’ve had enough
You were there by my side, always down for the ride
But your joy ride just came down in flames cause your greed sold me out in shame

After all of the stealing and cheating you probably think that I hold resentment for you
But uh uh, oh no, you’re wrong
Cause if it wasn’t for all that you tried to do, I wouldn’t know
Just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
Cause it

[Chorus:]
Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Never saw it coming, all of your backstabbing
Just so you could cash in on a good thing before I’d realize your game
I heard you’re going round play, the victim now
But don’t even begin feeling I’m the one to blame
Cause you dug your own grave
After all of the fights and the lies cause you’re wanting to haunt me
But that wont work anymore, no more,
It’s over
Cause if it wasn’t for all of your torture
I wouldn’t know how to be this way now and never back down
So I wanna say thank you
Cause it

[Chorus]

How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust so cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretend not to know the truth
You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself
Through living in denial
But in the end you’ll see
YOU-WONT-STOP-ME

I am a fighter and I
I ain’t gonna stop
There is no turning back
I’ve had enough

[Chorus]

You thought i would forget
But I remembered
Cause i remembered
I remembered
You thought i would forget
I remembered
Cause i remembered
I remembered

[Chorus]

Friday Tunes: In My Pocket

Apr 15, 2011

I will be the first to admit that when Mandy Moore first came out as a recording artist, I lumped her in with all the latest pop divas (Britney Spears, Christina Aguilera). In fact her first album for me fell short when compared to the two pop divas that hit the airwaves a little before she did. Mandy herself even admits that her first album is something that she isn’t proud of and that she was just going with the flow:

“I was just told to show up and what to sing … that was late-‘90s pop music for you. I found myself in the company of Britney Spears and Christina Aguilera, who had really quality music, much more so than mine was. I’m sure there are people scratching their heads, going, ‘Wow, how is she still around?’”

-Mandy Moore

As a result, i was completely put off by her and honestly did not expect much when her second album hit the airwaves, though I was pleasantly surprised after the fact. Moving forward her albums continue, in my opinion, to get better and as an artist, I appreciate her talent and her skill over those of Christina and Britney¹.

Mandy Moore is someone who I have come to admire for her resilience and her desire to be something different than what she was labeled when she first hit the scene. In My Pocket, I feel is a good demonstration of the raw talent she has and is still to date, one of my favorite songs.

[Chorus]
Nothing but pennies in my pocket
Nothing but faith to keep me warm
Well, baby, then I would be broke without it
Tell me, how much for your love
Slip my heart in your back pocket
All I got to keep you warm
So baby don’t leave me here without it
Tell me, how much for your love

Hoping the melody will leave you
You walk to where I might not see you
Reach out to the wind
Looking to catch it for a minute
But just to hold it not be in it
I’ve been where you’ve been
Cause some how I’m so afraid the love
Will reveal what you’re made of

Nothing but pennies in my pocket
Nothing but faith to keep me warm
Well, baby, then I would be broke without it
Tell me, how much for your love
Slip my heart in your back pocket
All I got to keep you warm
So baby don’t leave me here without it
Tell me, how much for your love

Cause somehow I’m so afraid the love will reveal what you’re made of

Friday Tunes: The Story of Your Life

Apr 8, 2011

I actually happened on this single by chance when I was totally and completely obsessed over David Cook. Andy happens to be one of his close friends and I really fell in love with his songs. The reason I love this song so much is because there are so many people who have touched my life in different ways and I often wonder if I have impacted their life in some form as well. Whether it was for the good or the bad, it does make me stop and wonder how my character would be written in the lives of the people I know or have known.

So what about you? If you sat there and thought for a moment, how do you think you’d be written in the lives of the people you know or have known? Why do you think that is?

The Story of Your Life – To Have Heroes
Every story has a writer who’s life has been inspired by love or a desire
To get inside of the mind of the reader or at least get to the next page
Every movie has a part where they get to the heart of the matter
Foreshadowing what might be happening
Whether or not there’s a trap door in the floor of the stage
So I’m trying to read
Cause I’m dying to see

Who I will be…
In the story of your life
Where will I be
If you close the book tonight
Am I the hero or the villian
Is it a history or fiction
Will I still be here in the end
In the story of your life
In the story of your life

In the novel I am writing
I’ve decided I am using the actual identities
Instead of misleading the people I love
Cause they’re the ones who need it the most
And every chapter is another beginning
And I’m beginning to guess my character’s in way over his head
Cause of something he said or maybe something he wrote
So I’m trying to read
Cause I’m dying to see

Who I will be…
In the story of your life
Where will I be
If you close the book tonight
Am I the hero or the villain
Is it a history or fiction
Will I still be here in the end
In the story of your life

Tell me Juliet
Can we make it through this act
Without a tragedy
Oh let’s get through this scene
Cause I’m dying to see

If I will be
In the story of your life
Where will I be
If you close the book tonight
Who will I be
In the story of your life
Where will I be
If you wrote the book tonight
Who will I be…..
In the story of your life
In the story of your life