Sep 18, 2011
I will be the first to admit that when it comes to balancing my personal life, work and blogging I pretty much fail at the concept. Often times I am so wrapped up in work that I do not touch my personal computer until the end of the work week which is odd for me. I used to be the type that had to constantly check my blog, Veracity, and Facebook on a daily basis and now? I’m lucky if I even get a day where that is the case. It’s beyond frustrating but I just don’t know how to balance life, work, and the internet.
What worries me even more is that I plan on returning to school in January and I know that is only going to make things worse. Any ounce of free time will be devoted to my school work so I’m at a loss as to what I should do. What works for everyone else? How can you balance family, work, and life alongside keeping your blog active? How do you manage to have enough time for “real” life and your internet life? What tips and tricks can you offer me?
I’m really contemplating going back on a routine which if anyone knows me knows I hate routine. I’m an Aquarian and repetition does not bode well for me but I kind of feel that I don’t have a choice at this point. Maybe I should start making a point to wake up at a specific time every morning so I have time to eat breakfast, walk the dogs and do my daily internet tasks. I just don’t know. It worked for me when I wasn’t working a morning schedule but I’m not sure if it will now unless I start waking up as some G-d awful time in the morning.
All I know is that I miss my internet life and I miss the connection I had with some individuals and I miss some people I’m close to on the net, period.
So what do I do? Help!
Jul 29, 2011
This month should have been a pretty exciting month for me. I finished school so I assumed that with that out of the way I’d be able to at the very least start resuming some of the hobbies I was forced to stop due to school. Well, I was wrong– very, very wrong.
In lieu of school, work has picked up by A LOT. Where I should be working 40 hours a week, I’m working at least 50-60 depending on what craziness is going on or if I have to come in early to manage the queue and make sure we meet our metrics. I’m exhausted and honestly the only thing I want to do is run far, far away. I feel like I’m always at my computer which bodes very badly for Veracity because the absolutely LAST thing I want to do after I manage to stop working for the night is sit at my computer.
Thing should ease up in September however that’s already a month and a half of “free” time I have lost. I just feel like if it’s not something it’s something else and no matter what I do, I can’t ever just have a break. Case and point, Robby and I decided to replace the carpet with laminate flooring in the loft. The plan was that I would order the flooring and the underlayment today but that has been postponed because the car is making funny sounds so he wants to get it checked which means the awesome, awesome desk we got to replace my current desk is still sitting un-assembled in the spare bedroom. Like I said, I CANNOT win and at this point I’m about to give up.
To add to my already wonderful issues, I found out a few days ago that the server all of my sites were hosted on was quickly overloading due to the load being placed on it. After some research it was discovered that we needed additional ram, which is all fine a dandy but that ram was going to cost $200 and well, does it look like I have that kind of cash laying around? Not likely. I had gotten to the point where I started looking into other dedicated server despite the fact that I really did not want to give up my managed hosting and really did not want to consider building my own server and seeking some colocation management. So as a last resort I reached out to the members of Veracity to see if they would be able to chip in. A few awesome individuals did so and now we have a brand, new spanking server with enough ram and the right specs to deal with the load on the server. I can’t even being to express my sincerest thanks to the individuals who helped out with this issue– it means so much.
All and all despite all the issues at work and the lack of time for really anything, this week has been better than the past few. I’m just tired and in desperate need of a vacation or at least a mini-break but unfortunately, I don’t expect that is going to happen any time soon– much to my annoyance.
Apr 9, 2011
Last night I made a decision. Probably one that I should have made months ago but there was always an excuse to serve as justification. “We’re too busy.” I’d said or “I’m too tired.” I’d hear [from Robby]– but finally last night I realized that the change I wanted and the change he needed was never going to happen if we half assed our way through everything. We needed this and though it’s going to be hard, especially on me, it’s something that I recognized we needed to do.
Yesterday, I told Robby that I was signing him up for Weight Watchers. I didn’t give him a chance to get in a rebuttal, I told him we were doing it and that was that. Surprisingly, he didn’t argue with me and told me he would try it. It’s going to be a lifestyle change for the both of us because while he and Kristen are trying to lose weight, I’ll be trying to gain it but I’m focused and I am going to do this. No more excuses, no more whining, no more justifications. It’s time the change we’ve been talking about for so long but have never followed through on and we are.
Today we embarked on that journey of change. My goal is to eat at least twice as much as the point value that Kristen is alloted a day, though I’m not deluding myself and realizing that I’m going to have a tough time to begin with. I’m not nearly near my goal for the day but I’m okay with that because it’s a work in progress and I know that. Meanwhile, Robby is now measuring out food as he should be and using the Weight Watchers app on his phone to calculate the point values for the things he’s eating.
I’m going to start drinking Boost Plus to try and increase my daily calorie intake and start tracking the weight that I will hopefully put on. I’m don’t expect this to an easy journey– it’s going to be hard as hell, but I am finally holding myself accountable and am doing the same with Robby. His goal weight is 190lbs and mine is 100lbs. Ideally I’d like to be about 110 but I’ll start small and work up and we’ll see how it goes.
We are the only ones with the capacity to change the people we are and the way we live and we finally are. When’s the last time you made a decision to change?
Jan 13, 2011
Well I totally disappeared there for a bit. School and work and now Veracity pretty much takes up a lot of my extra time so blogging, while I think of it gets pushed to the bottom of my to do list. Though, I am currently not doing homework to blog, I figured you’d all miss me! In any event Veracity is still doing very well and Kristen and I have come up with an awesome challenge for the Houses that is going to really pick up activity, while also forcing the Houses to work as a team. We’re super excited about it— you know once we actually get it all set up and what not. Time, unfortunately is not something that is kind to us.
On another note, my awesome husband let me get my birthday present early and I ended up getting a Barnes & Noble Nook Color which I absolutely adore! It’s perfect for my textbooks because of it’s highlighting and note taking capabilities and it’s actually not that bad to read off of. I really love me and Robby is now interested in one as well. It’s kind of amusing though because he wasn’t 100% on board with the idea to begin with but now he’s all I really like that, lol.
I know that I was supposed to do a giveaway and I will get to it when time allows. We are currently ramping down at work so I may end up going back to being an agent, however I did apply for the team lead positions they currently have available so we will have to see. Wish me luck I guess! =]
Aug 5, 2010
For those who know me they know that I hardly ever get angry. I get annoyed and irritated, but that NEVER translates into anger. In fact for the most part, given my heritage and background1 I generally keep a cool head, unless you happen to catch me at the peak of my annoyance or irritation, in which case if I do snap, I apologize for my actions after the fact.
However, despite my upbringing I have learned that anger gets you no where. I watched my mother and dad spend years angry at each other2. Hell, I spent years angry at my mother for not being the mother she should have been and even though it took me years to learn that anger is pointless, I was eventually able to realize that anger and grudges are a HUGE waste of energy and ultimately serves no other purpose than to bring a constant cloud of negativity in your life. I don’t know about anyone else, but I’d rather enjoy all that life has to offer than wallow in darkness because of it.
In terms of friendships, given that my last entry was very vague on the recent cutting of ties, I’ve always felt that when I felt that this was the route I needed to take, I’ve always done so amicably3. Generally, when I decide it’s time to walk away, I never do so in anger or hate. I’m never spiteful or vengeful and am usually in fact quite the contrary: enlightened. The last person I recently cut out of my life, I did so because I realized that perhaps the person I thought she was, was not the person she was. More specifically, I spoke of fake pretenses, not that she was fake per say, rather that she didn’t necessarily care as much about me as I did her. Did it hurt when I came to that realization? Sure, but that’s life. People get hurt and often its by the people we love or care for most; however despite that we all have a choice as to how we react and after years of seeing the people I love spend their lives angry and bitter and my knowledge that anger and grudges don’t do a whole lot a good, I made the choice to say farewell and wish her the best in her future endeavors.
Life is so much more than the negativity, the anger, and the grudges. There’s too much to live for to hold on to what others did that hurt us. I’m not saying forget because it’s always a lesson learned; all I’m saying is move on and cherish the positive moments so you can enjoy what life has to offer you because at the end of it all if you don’t, the only thing you’ll be filled with is regret and that my friends would be a shame.
1. My parents were very hot headed, short fused individuals.
2. Hell, they’re still angry.
3. Minus a certain friend, which for those who hear the story understand why I was angry.
Aug 3, 2010
For those who know me, they know that I am a firm believer that EVERYTHING happens for a reason and while it’s not always certain why that reason is, as time goes on that reason or reasons reveal themselves. For me, I’m glad that in this particular case it was sooner rather than later.
In the past few days I have decided that it was best to cut certain people out of my life after realizing that they never really gave a damn about me or the friendship that we once had. I can say with quite certainty though it is a HUGE relief because at least now I know and the fake pretenses which clearly surrounded the entire friendship to begin with can be dropped. That and that’s one less crazy I have to deal with! I get enough of those at work, thank you very much!
In other news, Kristen and I have decided to reorganize the kitchen. I’ve been wanting to do it for some time but I just couldn’t fathom doing the task alone, so I’m glad that I’ll have someone to help me with it. I’m actually pretty excited and I think along with the kitchen reorganization we can also try and paint the back wall like I’ve been wanting to do. I’m actually really excited about it and I think it will be a relief to scratch that off my list of things to do.
Next up is going to be the garage, but I don’t plan on tackling that until September when it starts to cool down because it is entirely too hot right now, so that will come in due time. I’m excited though because it’s nice to have another person with my mindset around to get things done. As much as I love Robby he’s the “I have an awesome idea” type and starts to work on it, loses motivation and stops. It’s good to have someone to kick me in the ass if/when that happens to me.
All in all, despite everything that has happened in the past few days I’m content and happy with the direction my life is headed. Having Kristen here has really helped with my sour mood of late, I am on a different path with Rochelle and honestly hope that this time around things are different, I continually get closer to Jenn and Meeka Micah Moo Moo Choo Choo and I have a group of friends who are always there for me no matter what. Friends, who I can call out when they’re being down right retarded, without issue or fear they’ll stop being my friends, and friends who understand that even I make mistakes, but I’ll always make a point to apologize when I’m in the wrong; that’s more than I can say for others and for that I am so grateful.
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